As many of you know I've been recovering from a bad infection on my ankle the last month. "Recovery" is a difficult word to define. My wound that became infected with the flesh eating virus is healing at a rate that is not even measurable. I've had the PICC line since early November (I am getting it out today!) where I had 4 weeks of IV antibiotics.
But being off of my main medications for rheumatoid arthritis since August has slowed me down considerably and I won't be able to go back on them for months. My tendon I was supposed to have surgery on is still close to rupturing, so once I "recover" I have a surgery to plan on.
Physically and mentally I've never felt so exhausted and that has been more difficult to cope with than the physical pain.
I was very blessed that my parents came to help for four weeks. They did project around the house, helped taxi Joshua from school to Tai Kwon Do to Little Gym. Mom made dinner and did laundry. Dad got my car up to par. I couldn't have done it without them. But that doesn't mean it was easy -- for any of us. I know I will never understand what they experienced seeing me hurt and not being able to fix it. And simple words could easily have led to misunderstandings and hurt feelings. After all, I've never spent so much time with them since I was 17 and living in their house.
People have asked, "How did you do it? Was it hard?" and I've just said, "We all gave each other grace." I recently read "article" below on the internet somewhere and have not been able to track down the author. As the holidays approach I know that many of us deal with the emotions of trying to accept that people are not always exactly how we want them to be. None of us are perfect. But that doesn't meant we love one another any less. Instead, we must just offer grace and remember what is really important in this life.
And most importantly, we must remember where to put our faith -- in the Lord, not in people. Romans 5:5 says, "And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."
I hope you will find hope in the article below... and you may even want to consider printing it out for your refridgerator. When someone complains about that turkey being too overdone, one of these references may just get you through the next few moments.
I believe . . . That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I believe . . . That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I believe . . . That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I believe . . . That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I believe . . . That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I believe . . . That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I believe . . . That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I believe . . . That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I believe . . . That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I believe . . . That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I believe . . . That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe . . . That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I believe . . . That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I believe . . . That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I believe . . . That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I believe . . . That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe . . . That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I believe . . . That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I believe . . . That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.
I believe . . . Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I believe . . . That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I believe . . . That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I believe . . . That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I believe . . . That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.